Make It Work Vs Crying Out For Me...

hmm.. its currently 1.54 inda morning... ive had better nights to be honest...

tnite was real disappointing... and not in the cliche sense everyone might think

Feelin of weakness
majorly disappointed in self with letting that barrier be brought down.. and have nothing come of it

just need this point in time to vent out all of the frustration and lack of self trust/dependency before the sun rises this mornin... after all no matter how awesome or great a person may be... they are at the end of the day just a person... like me... and just like a normal, people like that look forward to a new and hopefully more promising day. None of this crap will have its place wen i wake up in a few hours... fresh for a what would seem a hectic lifestyle for some... and shiet... my groin muscles hurt like hell.. something i should focus on recovering perhaps.. yep thatd get my mind off things

heres a scenario for olla you people that come across this blog of mine

ah fuck it. It actually involves someone close to me and i doubt they'd want me to have it up on this blog for the world to see... but i know how all those of you non-involved love controversy and danger so ill proceed to beat around the bush and give you some extra food for thought

for olla (by olla i mean "all of" think about it... it works) you ladies out there.. how many of you have had the shittiest experiences when it comes to guys ? and think about it in general.
> ever come across boys that lead you on only to leave you unexpectedly without any "real" reasons to bitter-sweetly-comfort your mind ?
> any of those boys ever just use and abuse your mind and body.. and on some occasions your soul ... because they could ?
> come across any that constantly just fuck around with your head because of their own insecurities and all that shit?
> ever been deeply cut up inside because they say things .. mean thinGs.. just to make you believe you are not worth anything more than what you already have ?
> ever been involved with a man that turned out to be a boy?
> sometimes coming across those most closest to you who don't exactly reciprocate your efforts and determination to make it work?..

i kinda lost the reason i started writing all of that just then so just try to make sense of it and relate it to whateva... hopefully... none of you girls relate to any of this ive said so far

for the sake of some structure and attempt to map out exactly whats doing my head in, im going to take a now tainted song i wanted to dance to for my 21st birthday and explain where i can - my opinion in relation to a girl that has a boyfriend whos there with Him for reasons that only our god knows.... the song again for all of you.. oh and btw read the lyrics and think about it before you read on because ill be relating all of my crap to the verse or chorus right above it.

Neyo - Make It Work

"You Understand Me
At Least You Say You Do
Lately Thats Enough For Me
Looking For Perfect
Surrounded By Artificial
Your The Closest Thing To Real I've Seen"

How many of you girls fall prey to a fella that knows how to say the right things? i sure as hell havent...haha (just laugh itll make me feel better)... worse yet, how many of you girls fall prey to a guy that doesnt say anything and keeps you pondering about your very relationship... your very foundation... damn man.. thats so shit, to have established something and believe you've built something over time only to be confused as to whether you really want or believe you want at the end of it all?... take note of that. theres a massive difference between the too... never ever settle for "thats enough for me" becoz there are others out there thatll completely eliminate those type of thoughts. and im not talking about just someone who eliminate those during ur honeymoon period, i mean eliminate that sort of thinking for real, enough for me goes to show you're scared of losing something even if that something never really made you truly happy in the first place. think about it. same old shit goes for thinking "you're the closest thing to real ive seen" ... when you start to "think" whether its the closest thing to real you've seen then hell yeah it aint real! real is the feeling you have for someone that you just simply connect from the get go until the end of your lives !... real simply isnt forcing urself to fall for someone or to stick to someone for whaT god only knows the reasons for !... fuck... im only one verse into this... aiya...

Im Sure Everyone Has Their Problems
Thats A Given
Yours Are The Easiest To Tolerate
This Wasnt What We Was Wanting
How We're Living
Lets Take This Good Enough And Turn It To Great
Baby Understand...

baby you gota understand... that you have to understand.
All relationships have their odd bumps throughout. Though when you start experiencing rollercoaster moments you have to take a step back, look at it, re analyse and think whether thats what you really want for urself... its fucked, its life.... Tolerating what life has to offer to survive and be happy is a toughie and needs to be experienced, but its the rash and detrimental choices you make during those moments that require toleration that'll determine if ull be happy with the way you have lived your life. partners are exactly that, partners. theyre the ones that will accompany you through this journey through life, assisting you with learning life lessons and complimenting you being a person. If you have to tolerate this person then thats fucked, think about it... why when you think about ur partner do you have to tolerate them? why not think... he/she and i are going to work out definitely what our issues are because i can see us together til the end?.. if you dont get me then just read this again and again until you do coz i cant be bothered explaining it, i have a whole song or two to write about. hmm last thought for this verse... lets take this good and turn it into great?. heres a piece of advice i will dispense For you people. When you see a potential for greatness with a person who you could see yourself with, latch onto it with mind body and soul, theyll look after you... you can make it work... even if you have a boyfriend at the current situation

This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It
Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt
We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl
But We Gotta Make It Work
We Gotta Make It Work...

Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh

we gotta make it work... WE gotta make it work.. our boi neyo words that perfectly or sings it ... there is no 'i' in team.. neither does 'i' exist in making relationships work, coz once u start doing all the work and the other gets complacent you have to put it to them, you have to confront them. Couples are permitted to be happy only as much as the combined effort of both equal, and when these two people connect on levels they usually dont with many others than that potential for happiness grows exponentially... and alOt of the time, to reach this achievable ideal
.... itll take some hurt

Sometimes I Love You
More Than You'll Ever Know
Other Times You Get On My Nerves
That's Just Reality
No, It Can't Always Be
Kisses, Hugs, And Beautiful Words

its all good and sweet when you know and believe you love the other person, yes sometimes they get on your nerves with the little trivial things... its reality and yes honeymoon periods full of kisses, hugs and beautiful words wont always exist forever... thats a relationship... now... to stir this image up think about this... you love the person you believe it, u wana believe it but you find someone else making a remarkable impact in your world from the outside with the least amount to no amount of effort at all.. who are these people you reckon? instead of the otheR getting onto your nerves you head into the extreme zone of questioning the very foundations and fundamentals of your relo. you start to consider how in fact, the integrity of your relo is completely shaken up... and if its by a third party, then they are probably a very special and controversial person... kisses, hugs and beautiful words dont matter in the long run, thas all physical and tangible (to a certain degree), at the end of the day the person making their impact in you world without trying is the one thatll make you weak at the knees and whilst taking your breath away. and for those of you underestimating my train of thought. i am certainly not talking about that cliche situation where say... a random fan of brad pitt meets brad pitt, im talking about a situation where two extremely close friends have gotten to know and admire each other as the people they are whilst sharing a spark between them the whole entire time from the moment they met ... like i said at the start of this post, this blog isnt so cliche as many would think of it to be, so givus some credit u havent already

You Was Looking For Your Friends
What You Found
Is A Partner With Potential

what the hell can i say for this, you look for a friend and instead come across someone who poses that potential greatness in terms of partnership with you. potential for something great.
"fuck controversy".. yet again...
"when you see a potential for this, chase pursue and fight! and cut out all of the other crap"
one of the greatest things ive learnt in recent times about myself and what will decide what actions i should carry out is simple...... deciding whether or not something is worth fighting for. unfortunately when that something is in the form of a hUman, it gets tricky coz you will BOTH have to want to fight for each other no matter how easy or difficult the situation is... whether its worth it. worth enough to be fought for. id deeply admire those type of people who realise and fight for something so i shall take it upon myself for future reference.

And No, I Know I Ain't Perfect
But I'm Around
Girl Time And Patience Is Essential
Baby Realize...

Thick And Thin,
The Bad Outweighs The Good Sometimes
That Doesn't Mean We're 'spose To Give It Up
My Problems Are Yours,And Yours Are Mine

for any problem that ever surfaces in a relo between two people the above few lines when used and meant could mean a perfect relo in terms of being always able to work through issues..... whats not perfect is... when you dont believe the other gives a shit about what theyve done, or worse yet, who doesnt show enough care to naturally realise there is something wrong in the first place, it takes two to tango, takes two to realise and solve. when one needs reminding or confronting then i wish all of you people luck if you decide to stick with em coz i believe thats a start of a permanent crack in the relo that can only be magnified in due course... but hey hey?!?!?! guesS what!!!!!!!

... i would really like to be proven wrong

(...OK LADIES AND GENTS TAKE A 5 MIN BREATHER, THIS POST STILL HAS AWHILE TO GO ...)

continuing......

countless minds believe that good guys always come last. im one of those individual minds... and thank goodness ive got my own to form my own opinions and analytical thinking with.. we have too many sheep in this world.. nehow im digressing from the point.

with the first half of this post i talked about a couple tryna make it work. that song by neyo talks about problems a couple of people might be having, worries that need to be solved and how the guy within the story of lyrics believed that they could "make it work".. its a sweet song, got some funky tunes to back it up, but that song barely scraps the surface of the potential problems and on goings that happen behind the scenes. Different situations, different people, different potentials, values and beliefs, thats where i absolutely magnified a whole bunch of very likely things that people will most commonly go through in reloz, you can almost call this post "Food For Thought Part 2".. if u havent read my other post than forget it, u wont get wat i just said..

Breaking up with someone to be with another person. sounds wrong hey?.... shoving a knife into a toaster to take a piece of toasted bread out is the same thing. my point if u havent gotten it already is that every situation that may appear to be a common happenin at front on value is almost always different once u get down to the nitty gritty details of motives and external influences. People break up and hookup with another for essentially the same reasons but the thought process, influences, values and beliefs almost always differ amongst people... never judge a book by its cover, if u have problems talk or ask it directly to them.... anyway... what happens when someone is in a relationship theyve dedicated themselves to... wateva the reasonS... but they fall for someone they know they could have something so much greater with... BUT they already have something thats been established over a period of time with the person they currently have... should they risk to pursue that potential for greatness they can see? or should they stick to making work what they already have? think about it like this, you buy urself a cheap new guitar, and u self teach uRself how to play it, from basics all the way to advanced you establish some sort of connection with it, in this guitar case it may of a nostalgic and sentimental one. One day you get given the choice to trade that very guitar into a shop in exchange for another one that looks better, is of great quality.... but u have no history with this... unlike ur old guitar... the new one you just recieved you have no history with, you have to start all over again from the very begin to establish that connection..... thas has a potential to be greater then ur previous just because you can do so much more with....taking into account whats more important to u is the connection u have with the guitar, do you exchange it or not ? something thatll help me explain this is by our friend mario with his song crying out for me. just like with make it work ill try and explain whats still going thru my mind with the aid of this awesome song but catch 22 song.

Mario - Crying Out For Me

It's like you caught up in a maze
You keep on going in circles girl you're trying to find your way out
But its time I put on my cape and
Put that s on my chest
Girl I wanna come and save you

To all the fellaz that have survived this post so far, have u ever been put in the position that this first verse describes, unfortunately it happens alot more common then we would like ay? although chances are the situation will always be like that... note that if ever u come across someone like that in the verse, fight for em, not bcoz of u but because they also deserve to be fought for. a massive fight for these girls is what they may truly need deep down even if they dont realise it....

But I'm stick in the middle of seeing you hurt
I know when you love him
And you wanna make it up
And I can't help but think that I known you first
It's getting louder
Can't ignore any longer

.......................................................... i feel helpless for those that do not want to be helped, even if they do wana be helped they are too selfless to act upon it for themselves, these people deserve so much more. Deserving to be admired for the people they are... from the history they came from, to the person they grew into, to the people they will become.....

I can hear your heart crying out for me (crying out for me)
I can hear your heart crying out for me
(And it keeps on saying) Come on in, come on in come on in and save
(And it keeps on saying) Come on in, come on in come on in and save
(I can baby) I can hear your heart crying out for me

Baby, I should've never caught feeling
But baby having late night conversion on your sofa
You telling me how he played you out over and over, over and over
But I'm stuck in the middle of seeing you hurt
I know when you love him
And you wanna make it work
And I can't help but think that I knew you first
It's getting louder
Girl I can't ignore it no more baby

I can hear your heart crying out for me (crying out for me)
I can hear your heart (oh yeah) crying out for me
(And girl it's saying)
Come on in, come on in, come on in and save (Save me)
Come on in, come on in, come on in and save (oh oh oh)
I can hear your heart (I can hear it yeah) crying out for me
Girl it's crying it's crying

I don't wanna confuse things (no)
But I just can't keep lying to myself
When you're holding me (when you're holding me)
I can feel your pain oh baby let me be your dream
I'm the answer come see me (see me)
And u don't have to cry no more (u don't have to cry)

Girl I can hear your heart baby
I can hear your heart
Girl it's crying
Won't you listen to your heart, baby

I can hear your heart crying out for me (girl it's crying out for me)
I can hear your heart crying out for me
(And it's saying)
Come on in, come on in, come on in and save (Save me)
Come on in, come on in, come on in and save
I can hear your heart crying out for me

Girl I can hear, hear it cry for me, for me, for me, for me

Ladies wave your hands in the air
Ladies wave your hands in the air

Oh baby
It's crying for me
It's crying for me for me

i didnt write much for the song.. it describes perfectly the type of situation a guy in that position will experience when they see a girl tryna 'make it work'. no need for me to elaborate.... that and i doubt many people would have mAde it this far down the page already.... at the end of the day i guess this is just me venting and u know? i think its finally started to work... even if there is so much more i wana say

crying out for me.... its what it is....if you were to trust me everything will be fine
>>controversy, good, bad, greatness, weakness, whats right, whats wrong, what you want, what you need, staying true to yourself, voicing out raw thoughts, trusting that third party, knowing them, connection & chemistry... unbelievable connection & chemistry....hope, sacrifice, persistence, chances, fights, impact, importance, influence, friendship, foundation, greatness, potential, different worlds, unexplained actions, breaks, re established contact, realisations, pillars, injokes, hours of conversation, market city, hyde park, fountains, strolls inda park, circular quay, harbour bridge, the rocks, ring, daGgy, snowman, pumphouse, gossip, captured moments, non-captured moments, impulsed based reactions, seduction, passion, loyalty, respect, understanding, patience, friends, family, family parties, guitars, chasing, introductions, effort, frustration, helplessness, catch 22, situations, phone calls, passes a month, pets, city, hanging out, late night text.... everynight, holding back, hug, warmth, rain, music, dance and finally...happiness

what exactly do u have with him... i really don't know or understand, and pardon my naivety... but realise that all of the above we built together in a matter of a few months..... all whilst trying to heavily hold back... so now i gota tone some of this down a little and to let go of the rest.... this is quiet a list and its gona be a touGhie to sort out... and for the record if there was any glimmer of hope in you to do something for us to happen... you should of done something about it, to make it work the way you were crying for me deep inside. i know ill look back and regret.... regret how i didnt fight hard enough for you and i to end up the way i believe it should have been... so even though this post is all about "you"...realise now if you cant fight the way i have for a potential us than this is the end of our story

but dont worry ill still be around the place as promised

to ya'll out there dont bother asking me about this post... make comments yeah but chances are i wont talk about what i said in here... and i mean it for everYone... though... "you" are the exception as it always has been.

its currently 5.00am
the sun is about rise....

gotta love these venting sessions,
C