Food For Thought

never felt it for anyone but for those who tie me down by immediate-common blood
never said it to anyone I held for more than 1 minute within 30cm of my physical personal space
never have I gotten close to thinking about saying it at all to anyone else
never truly believed those special few when the time for confessing that word was at hand
never have had the privilege of ever being on the receiving end
never have had the satisfaction of giving it unconditionally

firstly my apologies to my imaginary readers, just read a fairly deep blog from one of the few blogs that I read so I guess it was kind of expected to see an entry of this type here.. actually knowing me this type of entry will kind of set the mood for the type of entries I put into this blog overall

..... So what are my thoughts on *that word*.... "LOVE" (dun dun dunnnnnnnn!!!!)

it makes me cringe... for a number of reasons
it is common knowledge that this word is forever- raped, screwed over, abused, confusing, ambiguous, differentiates in definition between individuals.... wait that ones a lie..... for the majority there is no definition. and there are all these other reasons; however Im sure u can already see the picture

I dunno how to explain it. Im always skeptical each and every time I hear that word said to another person just because I always seem to see past the words and actions. I have this really annoying habit of reading and observing constantly and what opinion it forms out of the images I paint with those observations aint so lovey dovey as it is made out to be... and u know what? I am unfortunately correct almost every single time. For the record before u judge me take this into account I speak from experience earned and not knowledge taught to me. Got a problem? Than what the hell are u doing having read this far?

.. anyway..

Heres a question to those that say u love your current partners no matter how old u are. Why do u love the person u say u love? What reason? What can u see? Are there any logical reasons why you do what you do that you just chose to cover up with that word love? Do you give a fuck about em really? I mean do you give a fuck about HIM or HER as a "complete person" really?!?! ... or are there specific attributes/characteristics and traits that make your chest go ladidadada? Does it feel right to be with them taking into account ur feelings only? at least try and exclude external influences to the relationship between u and him/her, sad to say that excludes ur family ur friends ur school teachers ur lyrics ur horoscopes ur computer this blog and nething else on that level. What can you feel? WHAT CAN YOU FEEL ? ... and there’s a reason why I highlighted that AGAIN .. and I aint about to spoon feed you coz that’ll take a whole blog entry worth many a4 pages... so ill give you one of my liners

keep it real with yourself and allow true feelings at its absolute raw-rest form to manifest itself in your daily life, with this - YOU WILL move mountains. or the overwhelming feeling of satisfaction brought about from the outcome will be of the exact or greater equivalent.


hell... I shoulda just said moving mountains in the heartsy-metaphorical sense.. but who gives a rats ass!

moving right along to some seemingly interesting and in some cases confronting questions.... but u actually have to TRY and relate it ok ? good!

*Buying gifts for your girl to keep her happy aint love
- that’s called a gold digger
*Getting forced to drive around cause your girl feels like you aint being a man without ur license aint love
- that’s a lie-ing betch that only really strives for control over you with her punani whip
*Fuck a girl that says "I love you" within 45mins of contact at first sight
- that’s a girl tryna get a green card to Australia
*Having your girl say I love you after sex aint love
- a kiss and a hug means so MUCH more
*Girls who throw themselves at you after drooling for so long aint love
- that’s a shallow/simple minded person heavily infatuated with the way you dance
* A girl that calls every second of the day wanting to give you attention and know what you are up to aint a girl acting out her love for you
- she’s a psychotic individual in need of CONSTANT attention and looking-after... and to those decent girls out there* I don’t mean you, this is the typa person who will get pissed off at you if you don’t inform her of what consistency your urine is when we go to the toilet, sound unrealistic ? THAT’S WHAT A PSYCHOTIC GIRL IS

..... hmmmm..... how am I going? heres a few more....

* The inability to leave the person you're with when you're heart isn’t all there aint love
- its a major flaw in never ever being able to put yourself first during the times when YOU need to the most
* Saying I love you to the person you've been with like none-other thus far doesn’t necessarily mean love
- that’s a fallable and FORCED attachment you've made yourself have.. That’s an attachment you give urself through voluntary thinking and reasoning, not because your emotions made you blurt it out accidentally.
* sad to say but dedicating yourself 110% mind and soul doesn’t mean that you'll be getting it back
- it means that there is someone else out there with the desire to give you themselves unconditionally
* cheating on your man or girl emotionally or physically is still cheating
- I definitely believe these people are not in love. however... that third party that decided to leave their mark emotionally in that taken persons world would more or less have presented something more happier, more ideal, and importantly more FULFILLING

....*thinking*

This whole idea of love to me is pretty vague but given enough vagues is actually quiet specific and can give some sort of definition. so lemme try..

I will never say I love you to the girl special in the life till I decide that the girl standing at the altar is the one I would consider on the level of "family", family above all...basically the one id give my life for. profound and deep you say ? Im sure real love will give you every emotion there is to experience in the world once u have it within your grasp. True love exists but only a rare few ever experience this, as a friend once pointed out to me. These individuals are the reason why the saying "love at first sight" exists, the reason why there is general belief that TRUE "love conquers all" and all of that other cliché garbage that the rest of us all use to get into the others pants... well I think id be crossing the line by saying that so I take it back. but I wont delete this line? anyway. For the majority, love is the sugar coated disguise that we place on the real raw emotion that we feel that aint as accepted by the public .. confused? love for the rest of us generally means infatuation or a real deep attractedness... and for the naive few love to them is just cause they've been with their partner for so damn long that they are "just used to it"... I mean... how often do you witness couples that have been together for so long who constantly express their "love" for each other in every physical and emotional form - only to break up several years down the track? perfect example. I have never personally been in a relationship longer than 3 months.. (without a break up) or 2 months and 29 days to be exact... but from what I can deduce alot of the time, couples that have been together for more than 5 years are scared to break up with each other for fear of 40-year old virgin syndrome.. well chances are they aren’t virgins but the fact that it may be "too late" to find another partner- a fear keeping them together... ahh u know what I mean !

"Love is this,
Love is that,
When you realise a potential chance for this,
Chase, pursue, fight! and cut out all of the other crap !"
_C

End of the mighty random rant ... for tonight

peace.
C


ps. I wana add one thing... Take note of this carefully, the moment you take a cliché look at a person while they mention how "great" a person you are with the genuine eyes to match take a look inside yourself.... and if you feel like saying something along the same lines back then guess what? put yourself out on a limb, risk yourself, risk your conscience, don’t listen to anyone, do what you feel inside, fuck controversy...... let yourself hope and hang amidst IMPOSSIBLE odds and situations for a *potential* ideal ending.......