You had the inevitable 'talk' with the lady after baring the brunt of her non motivating reactions to your advances in the last couple of months. 'Want to have dinner?' ..*gunt* ... 'Let's hangout this weekend?' ...*ask me later*.. 'Did you get my messages?'...*yep*.... 'so you didn't feel like a reply would be nice?' ....*no reply*
You once thought that this woman would be a real contender, a real potential.
Maybe she is. She exhibits some mental fortitude you don't see in many women and for that I think you picking her was still a great thing. Ironically however she doesn't exhibit these towards you. She likes to talk about the problems? she avoided it every time. She's a woman that knows what she wants? she couldn't make a decision after 10 damn months. You tried calling her casually to see how her day was? you were shut down once more after she got automatically defensive when you tried to talk about the situation. Bare in mind she was the one that asked you if you could still be friends with her. She was so rigid solid set in her ways not once did she ever take the risk in doing something out of the ordinary for you. She may have liked you, but that was never her choice to begin with.
The uneasy post feeling of ending something still lingers all the same and hopefully it blows over sooner rather than later. All the same you felt like a chump at the time.
And future Chris. It had been some years since you actually let someone like this in - and you were an idiot for doing so for this one. Harden the fuck up and just get on with life! also hopefully down in future years your ego will be in check because that's what probably bruised more than anything. This girl was never going to be the right one for you, you never honestly vibed with her. it may have worked if she pulled her weight - but she never did and this was something you knew deep down from the start. Dumbass!
From The Lady to just that girl...
upwards on onwards. another bites the dust
- C
4-8-15
1922
- C
4-8-15
1922
