Here, There , Everywhere

With the passing of n2s' second year jam i find myself once again with copious amounts of spare thinking and planning time, so much so i feel like im wasting my day.. however here are some of the randoms topics that have come to mind as of late

Favours - One pet hate I have is with people who say shit that never follow through. Im a guy of my word and I expect it in return - no matter how many times I get burned it's always the case. Latest sicho that hasn't seem to have left my mind is this dude who practically promised to be the dude on n2s night that takes our photographs,
"If its on a Friday for sure i'll come down and take some shots just stay in touch with me on facebook and ill definitely get back at you."
I facebooked him TWICE in the week leading up to the event, no reply.

Not only was he a focker for saying shit he didn't mean I went out of my own way to try and stay in touch with him and yet no reply. Is he really that much of a bloody sook? I hooked up with a girl he most likely had his eyes on a couple weeks prior. Bet that had something to do with it. Man the fuck up and move on I say.

Current fb status: "Keep business, favours and casual talk separate. Otherwise fuck off."

Women. Can't live with or without you. The end

Sydney Circle. I've met people recently and since then this major itch has just sprung up on me and it goes alil something like this. I wanna do medicine, i wana do paramedics, i wana travel, i wana work overseas, i wanna meet new people, i wanna surf, i wanna shoot, i want to photograph, i wana make you feel something you've never felt before, i wana be a friend, i wana be your 'friend', i wana be tempted, i wana be spontaneous, i wana be focused, i wana cause shit, i wana be seen for the guy i really am, i wana give you this, i wana give you that, i wana share this ball of energy, i wana be sneaky, i want everyone to know, i want a new bloody phone

Depression or self diagnosed emo-ness. So many people - too many actually are so caught up in themselves and their shit that so many feel like they have to drag the world around with them down to feel their crappy ass vibe and to be sad with em. Why? do they actually enjoy being all moppy and shit - I'll never know but as with most things ive got my theories. I reckon these dudes and dudettes lack willpower. Willpower is the key i reckon. Not some drug that'll temporarily make you feel numb but willpower. A business minded analogy could almost be used "If you think you'll success you will, the only thing holding people back is the way they think"

Same shit with this emo-ness, why do people break up after 5 year relos and move on like nothing ever happened while u have other after a 2month relo jumping off building tops and shit. WILLPOWER. Willpower is probably the greatest trait one person can have, an impressive trait, a useful one, a potentially fortune creative one and not to mention an attractive one.

So if your emo, the first thing is imo - "Don't do shit and hope to move on, rather its the opposite way round. Think of all that stuff you can do cause you will move on." - props to positive and forward minded thinkers

Rhymes/lyrics/spoken word. As im slowing down in my blogging phase Im re entering one that involves alot of what you can kinda call poetry... urban styles.. wateva that means of course

Stay Tuned

Dedication

Click the link, start reading the moment the song starts playing.. delay and you might not keep up ;) -> Play Me Now

This blog post be dedicated to all the real women out there who at times feel lost and confused about what they are.. what they should do.. why things the way they be.. confusing and greatly disheartening at times when your always surrounded by fake asses, however I'm telling you your fine the way you are ...It's all good
                                      

now to kick it off...

                                                                   .... ready? go!

The look in your eyes, the way your hair falls naturally by your side ...too dope

You don't need your nails done, hair did or worry bout your face when you wake up & roll over to see your guy ...He be loving exactly the way you are.

Don't compare yourself to mags, models or even friends ya'll are fine, ya'll are a unique beauty ...That's all you have to know. Real Talk

..chyeah

Good girls, bad girls - we know you can't take compliments. Real men will always try ...The good guys
Shame you don't see what we can see ...It just makes us want to try even harder to make you understand


Don't ask how good looking you are cause ...you ain't good looking cause that's a stupid word ...your gorgeous


...Dayum

Vanity, pessimism, shallowness, & jealousy ...Waste
Appreciation, hope, confidence, independence, raw and honest ...Qualities

At the end of the day we don't wana change anything ...Cause you hella fine just the way you are
 ...Boom... sit back, relax and chill


Smile when your happy and infect that energy with those around you ...you'll move mountains. The type of person that the world would stop a min for and stare - then follow in suit.
Dance, laugh and absorb everything positive around you ...turn negatives into positives or into something amazing. Cause you can..

keeping up?


Your lips, those lips, our lips ... should I say anymore than that?

Laugh. With humour comes everything, it is hella sexy ...it's true


You females got no idea how beautiful inside and outside you actually are ...and again just remember the good guys are here to remind you once more

. Expect simple
.. Think spontaneous
... Have an open mind
.... Don't change
..... Once you find perfect what else is there to look forward to?
...... Wish for imperfection
..... Impossible is infact achievable
.... The unrealistic can work
... You can do whatever you want
.. Appreciate what you have 
. Endless opportunities with sheer willpower and courage


When the right man is there infront of you, infront of your face, hugs you firmly, holds your hand gently and looks at you passionately. No matter what the circumstance ...Think perhaps you might have something amazing. Fight without regret

All this just being just the way you are and accepting it ...mega dope

Smile in times of difficulty not cause you are hurt but because you have courage ...strength

Spread the positive attitude to those needing a breath of fresh mental air ...Inspire

You are amazing just the way you are and you deserve to know ...all smiles =)

 The way you are... these words be the realest, the type of words people generations down the track need to learn the real value of. Don't trip, don't get caught up in fake hype, always have an open mind and learn who's there for you holistically and not just for an aspect of you... most important of all, appreciate and respect those that have influenced your life in some way, shape or form.
So, by this stage the outro of the track should be playing.. without the heavy beats and synthesised sounds to distract you. Now listen. Listen to the last few words and ponder.


peace,

Chiapoco

Hahahaha

signing on at 10:00pm

Figured this blog is perfect for those emo rants and your about to witness one right now mr blogspot. All other trivial dont-really-care stuff is at chiapoco.tumblr.com if you're into that stuff.... CHYEAHPOCO is where the real deep shit is at.

Topic of this evening..............................
Women <= ahuh

Why?

...Why not?

...... Why can I?

...........Why can't I?

.... Why do I?

Why should I...

"I'm no playa... I just get caught up a lot."- this is reallllll talk. lol real real talk..

Even if I know I have every means of overcoming it. I've got the friends, the personality trait and every other capability to get over it. The getting caught up and being undecided thing that is. I'm almost as bad as my female counterparts. HAH! Tonight though the issue isn't that.

Fuck

Everytime I close my eyes at night and reflect on the days and weeks gone by I'm never truly satisfied when it comes to the aspect of 'getting socially involved' with the opposite sex. You females stir me to no end.. I've sacrificed very important things to me, re routed the way I interact and have adopted what I thought was a natural persona that suits the phase and transition that I'm forever finding myself in.

... I still have life by the balls though, so this isn't a breakdown post.. more like that next extra step you take between leaps... I digress (love that word)

so whats the issue at hand?

Women. When I'm taken I'm not fully happy AND its just the same as when I am single no matter how 'active' I may seem to be. Just don't get why. sigh duck...


I let The Great White Buffalo go thinking that was the right step.. maybe it was, maybe it wasnt - haven't quite decided yet.. still I let an amazing person go. It wont ever be the same.

Compared to your average joe my single life has taken a turn and become a lot more interesting. Doing my single thing yet Im not quite sure why I still think back to the campanionship / holding down I had in the past. Hmm perhaps this obvious theory might shed some light?...
.... Peoples views/values/morals on relationships differ and are shaped accordingly based on the type of experience they've had in the past... the same attitude that'll probably be reflected throughout the rest of their day-to-day lives no matter how much they try to change things... nothing like a first time right?

I on the other hand have had a taste of both... short and long, meaningless and too overwhelming feeling of being comfortable... perhaps my experience has just messed around with me 'position' in all this and stuck me on a fence?.. meh like a real libran should I suppose. Can't have both the benefits of a taken or single life, gotta be one or the other -> Foor For Thought

So I mentioned this to Mr Reyes recently that I should stop trying so hard and to just "back up, relax" and chill...maybe I should really consider it cause come reflection time the amount of energy sapped into this part of my life is quite significant.. there are so many other things and ambitions I could be investing into aka N2S


You know what. The emoness just ran dry in this blog. Fuck It.

I GOT THIS BY THE BALLS

Waddup!

3 months or so into work i've finally started my on call shifts. Meaning from friday nigh 7pm till monday morning 7am ill be on call and be called into work at any time!

kinda sux balls

On another note, as I see all these uni students and non full timers rockin it out, travelling the world and having fun where i cant it kinda makes me realise how much full time shift work can really takes its toll - life is so regimented and routine that it sucks coz im a fairly spontaneous dude! ahhhh

Paramedics Vs Medicine ...thats where my headspace is at the mo!

other news, I've met some hella dope people round town, seen people who have been long since broken up get back together (marioonneee! LOL) and vice versa too.. kinda sad to see.

ZZ or Zig Zag Cru/Creative Identity is probably the highlight of my last 6months or so . those dudes be the funniest out! too bad they so far out west coz i cant really chill wit em, especially on them weeknights.. ah well

On with the grind

peace.
Chiapoco

Tell you guys a secret

Doesn't matter how good a dancer myself or others think I am.

A girl that can counter that energy right back will have me on my knees.

Ahh Real talk!

Boom
Chiapoco

What it do baby boo

signing on @ 1154

Excuse the title I just figured it suited the moment.

As always its been several months between blogs posts, several things have happened and and heck of a lot more to look forward to.

People may be sick of hearing the name N2S spammed verbally, through event invites or group invites but as ignorant as many people may be now, n2s now has added purpose after what was a pretty defining meeting with a good mate of reyes and I - Jerome "Klasik" Salele - shouts to his crew Nufirm and Ones Clothing. n2s 2 years is gona be massive - we will make it massive and the energies invested into this will bear its fruits when its all done and dusted... just saying. Im a guy with ambition and unclear drive.

Also i started my new job at Royal Prince Alfred Hospital - from the get go I realised the standards of this hospital and the rate that staff stick to policies/procedures and evidence based practiced doesn't come anywhere near St Vincents Private hospital which is the hospital that i did most of my student training at, as well as my 1 year new graduate program. Its gotta be said since comparing different major hospitals is apart of agenda

Dancing wise - Ive been associated with groups called Zig Zag and Creative Identity - after several years out of that crew scene i finally decided to step back in just to see what it was in the first place the compelled me to be so active in it. What i found was both why i hated being in them and why i loved it just as much. ZigZag and CI are the funniest/best things thats happened, i forget how social dance can be. So many people out there doing their thing too busy hating rather than educating.. anyway.

Oh and i won the Australian Dance Festival - Streestyle 1v1 Hip Hop Freestyle Battles too - first time since my year10 dance in highschool hahaha heres a pic of evidence for yall viewing pleasure!



at this point of my life - 5 hours sleep is the average - and thats forcing myself to bed... chyea this feels good

Suppose i shuld come up with one of those cliche lines people make up to kinda of express themselves in that sorta "intellectual" way eh? meh - nothing in life is making a turn towards anywhere... everything however, is moving forward

signing off @ 1215

Chyeah
Chiapoco

Recent happenings

So lately I've been trying to find a job. With a couple of K in the bank the likelihood of me exhausting this resource is wayyy high in the near future. I've applied for all sorts of places including Gloria Jeans, other hospitals, back at my old job at Greater Union (?Event Cinemas) and just today at EB Games at town hall station. I did have a job lined up at a local medical centre in the city but after what was said to me at this "interview" i basically told them to go and shove it... why? To all of you people unfamiliar with the health industry, health professionals usually have a license they obtain after years of study or work experience. Without my license or "registration" i cannot be called a Registered Nurse since I wouldn't be able to function as one. What these dodgy asian fockers were basically saying was that I was to put my license on the line so they could make money - "because thats how the private sector works" - dickheads. I shall not name this medical centre for legal reasons.

Lately I've been getting my act together when it comes to my firearms license. People don't know but getting your license is alot easier than may seem.. i guess people just get deterred with the whole process which is pretty long but contains a firearms training session - necessary for persons like myself and mr reyes.So yes, I have my firearms license and I go to the SSAA club out at St Marys.. quite the treck I know.

It's been cool, first time I held that gun in my hand I didn't really know what was going to happen... apart from the fact it was going to fire. I loaded the magazine with 10 .22 rubber tipped bullets and loaded it into the rifle. Looked down the scope to see that all too familiar crosshair that many gamers will have been accustomed to in FPS games. I shifted the action and locked the bolt down to successfully load my first shot into the rifle. Looked at the crosshair again and realised how just one slight inhalation could throw your aim off.. i steadied it.. focused at the target.. nerves were hanging...squeezed that trigger every so slightly the butt of the rifle flush up against my shoulder.. then *BAM* it was the pissiest sounding firing Ive heard.. almost like a paintball gun with a little more base to it lol. The shot was wayyyyyyy off haha... realised though that the shot had a regular flight pattern when ever i fired a shot. With a few adjustments in aiming and shooting technique i was shooting near bulls eye... at 25m...lol

On other news, its been a couple months now since I've broken up with my last gf.. hmm

Didn't mention anything about that here on my blog for obvious reasons at the time. Between me and this blog I want to establish one clear thing. I broke up with her not to be single but because i wasn't ready for a long term. Like i've told everyone that's asked so far - when we first went out as gf and bf we agreed to specifically "go with the flow" quote/unquote ... I remember this clearly because it's something that mean't alot for me.. to just "go with it".. not sure if it mean't the same to her though..All my relationships have been a steady 3 months maximum each or less in some circumstances... before I knew it was way over a year - she looked after my house while my family went to the Philippines and we had plans to meet her parents... I started to freak out in the inside but I just kinda ignored it.. until a certain occassion happened and it triggered the whole process. I knew she was going to upset and I already was....

Whatever happened I had to make sure it was as "clean" as possible.. last thing I want to have done to her was to have this drag on for days.. weeks... months.... you know that's up when someone changes their status to "its complicated" on facebook.

side note to the above sentence: My opinion? tell the guy to grow some fucken nuts and get him to put his foot down - girls I've ever come across don't.

Anyway

I respect her so damn much. Doing what I did doesn't and won't ever make sense to alot of people especially her friends and everybody else that ever met/heard about me..

All in all she was the fucking best and there isn't anything else I can say, there was absolutely nothing wrong with the girl and to this day I think back and hope I had made the right decision.

It's her birthday this month, her 23rd birthday.

She'll be getting flowers delivered to her work from a nameless person this year.

I hope she likes.

Thats it.

C

Breakout

So... been reading up on a number of forums and reading up on other fellow dancerinos spills with the whole idea of what it is to be living in the "hip hop" culture- specifically the dance scene and all that it entails... fuck is that such a bigatalastic topic.. I just had the urge to write a lil sum'm sum'm.. many of you seeing my typa work for the first time

Like many, I've got my own opinions - my own way of writing (which people will get used to in time) and my own strengths and shortcomings when it comes to the world of dancers and hip hop... here's a *cheers* to finally saying something to all of ya out there

...BUT..

First things first...........

Whether you (the reader) rate me as a dancer or someone who simply dances is entirely up to you.
This post is a first for many things ...though it ain't going to be your typical rant about some bastard stuffing round dancers nor issit a critique about the many issues facing the hip hop scene/culture at this point in time, however, it's the first time I write an open analysis of myself -- of where I've come from and where my head is at with the whole dance thing. More importantly though it's a baseline to compare all my future endeavours, thoughts and discoveries on. For all the rest of you who don't know me.

Allow me to introduce that dancer side of yours truly ~

I am dancer and it's the passion - I don't physically dance to music 24/7 but like a vast number of dancers out there with "more brains in their feet than in their heads" - dancing happens in your head, in the groove of your walk down the street, in the beats created by the clicking sound of your pen, the constant clashing of construction equipment in the lot next door, and in my case (+ tyical filos) - having your body twitch awkwardly and randomly as you attempt to hold back your body from allowing that freestyle itch to manifest itself right then and there - when I am actually mean't to be attending to my many sick patients vital needs.

Before i proceed....

(Definition: "Typical" - verb - describing a filipino or filipina that by profression are either nurses/engineers/teachers and by night are dancers/basketball players or simply supastar wannabes)

Unlike many my inspiration to dance didn't come about listening to music, in fact I was pleasantly oblivious by the very thought of it until highschool rolled around the corner.

(Some background Hx)
As a young lad, I found it tough to express any feelings or emotions in such an overt way that people often see me doing nowadays. A lot of that is attributed to the fact I was raised in an old school style with extensive use of the "iron fist"... also commonly known as the tsinelas (see-neh-lahs), or sinturon (sin-too-ron). Killing that final boss, or catching that bastard Dratini were the only ways I felt I could freely be open and express anything unrelated to school. An introverted/shelled off kid with little ability to express interest and thoughts in anything other than videos games basically summed me up in comparison to who I am now.

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It was in highschool where a PDHPE assignment to "choreograph" a routine with Lloyd(Enerjetix) and Princy(Enerjetix) was given to us (which we aced). That's when the first taste of that burning desire rose as we jammed and collaborated for the first 3 hours of our dancing days - it grabbed my values and habits by the balls/twisted/slammed and twisted it again. Finally, something made sense - it felt bloody "insaaanneeeee bruuuu!!"

The following few years that followed - "Enerjetix" - was a crew I was heavily involved with. We danced, we performed, we practiced 7 days a week and the result was MANY of my BEST memories of dancing. Even now. You can give me a gig that pays well, place me on a show that makes me think I dance or what ever - however NOTHING will ever top the feeling the boys and I went through that first night in 2004 when we became nervous wrecks/panicked/gathered/prayed/calmed - all moments before we performed for the first time onstage with an audience made up of 3000+ "Kathedral Kollaborationz" comes to mind. It's great to see a couple managed to keep on keeping on with their thing.

On that note - Dance Group vs Dance Crews - Think about what makes either/or and know the difference... or at least try to want to know. If you don't? Think some more.

In terms of issues in the scene, they are best posted in their own time - where it can be dealt with in as clear-a-detail as possible - a lot of this is covered in many other dancers posts online.

...which brings me to the next part...

shout to Chux (Doppelgangers), Katrina (Shady Ladies) - though I'm not involved with them much at this stage with their on goings they are a couple of people that come to mind whilst writing this post. You'll find much of what they have to impart here >> http://hiphop.org.au/ --I came across this site accidently.. can't even remember how that accidently happened... meh watevs - It's bookmarked now and I suggest you guys do the same and perhaps contribute to some of the discussions going on there, everything said and discussed there is exactly what the scene needs. Two mega strong personalities having a major hand in ensuring that the hip hop dance scene is being guided in the right direction - they receive countless praise and recognition for it and rightly so. Foundation and knowledge. Respect to both of you.

Another fellow - more like grandpa is Darrio Phillips - This dude has been a great mentor and supporter of what I have done/ what I do and what I plan to do. His words are priceless and every emo talk about dancing I've had with him has been for lack of a more manly word - 'enlightening' . If you ask around, many people will hate on this guy but I'm here to tell ya - don't. Just like any shit stirrer, he just talks a lot just like me... only he talks a lot more. Love ya man! (no homo). Keep doing ya thing and if you don't know who he is - google/youtube straight away.. theres bound to be some compilation clip when he was in his late 20s?...30s? hah!

Mr Mark Reyes and James Sonny Chiapoco aka Ruthless - these two guys may or may not know but they serve as a source of motivation and inspiration to further do what I do and have been for this whole time. My brother lol, Ruthless. Need I say more? He's a prime example to me as someone who represents as real as he could his own scene (KRUMP) - though I was one of his major motivations to start dancing - several times over the years I have looked at him and gained reasons to further my own dancing in all aspects. Mr Reyes aka my other brain is exactly who I needed to meet - cause of this guy what remained of my dancing values have been acted on. Night 2 Sunrise aka n[2]s happened and will remain!.

Jerome Valencia - Respect to this guy for showing so much passion and all the work he has put into supporting the hip hop scene. Criticalhype is what I should promo for ya! haha regardless. Your work doesn't go unappreciated. Not by me anyway.


Shouts done for now...

Even as a relatively unknown lad to the scene - I've always had a major focus to do my part by bringing new talent to light, to show and encourage would-be starters, to teach and impart all of what I know. Many people hold back from wanting to teach the "right" shiz for all sorts of reasons all the way to my Pikachu with bottle of alize in hand. Another major topic saved for later...

With that last paragraph - I'd like to expand on the idea of n[2]s aka Night 2 Sunrise (no this ain't suppose to be a self promo thing.. hmm reminds me of a post Chux made awhile back...hah)

Many of you will probably have received at some point in time a message regarding this monthly jam sessions happening. In a nutshell, once a month we gather in the city streets and dance early night till sunrise next morning, however let me tell you the reasons why:
1.) People do not jam enough. I am not talking about the jam sessions held by different schools and organisations. I am talking about jamming for the individual which includes myself. If you want to be a hip hop dancer, you gotta know how to freestyle. It's that simple. The concept of what is freestyle and what is biting or "plagiarizing" is extensively explained by non other than Chux. Hit up that website I linked earlier.
2.) Trend hoppers and fakes bastards - With the advent of SYTYCD on aussie TV. A massive boom in the dance industry bellowed, as a natural result I've seen many people jump onto the bandwagon and claim to be hip hop dancers when they don't even give a flying f*ck about what it really means. I am not talking about people who casually take class and enjoy it - those people are cool. I'm referring to those self-proclaimed out there who walk up to you and interrupt you in the middle of a cypher - do some weird azz hand shake - then walk away.. wtf I say. By having this jam session at the most inconvenient time as possible - that is on a Friday night - n[2]s natural aims at only attracting people who are there for the love... maybe a few drunks at 3am but primarily a concentration of like minded people. As a result a jam sesh for vet dancers opens up without all the political BS that accompany most things and also a safe haven for newbies who want to learn but yet have no where to start - what better area for them to find themselves in with a group people willing to pass on knowledge without feeling that pressure that massive jam sessions always bring? n[2]s is 1 year and 6 months old.


Didn't realise how much I actually wrote in this posting. Wrapping this up, there is one last thing I'm going to say. The title of this posting is "breakout"

.. to breakout of my comfort zone, to breakout of my current style and to further embrace other disciplines, to break out and to let myself be known but most important of all.. to breakout and get my battlemode on.

Let me leave you guys with an image..

I have a thing for female ninjas

peace and cheese.

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C