Calling me whipped?
Hate that fucking word.
Wednesday, 2 February 2011
Sunday, 30 January 2011
Last Thought. Sometimes leaving things to faith don't mean u'll be happy.Anything is possible if you want it bad enough - make it work & act
It’s all good to leave things for when times feel “right”. That is this thing we call “fate” or having “faith”. Hell, even I’m a fan of that saying.
At the same time and in the true essence of ying and yang there’s gotta be some sort of counter force that creates the two opposing sides to begin with.
The art of “acting” and gently caressing factors surrounding the task or issue at hand into the desired (and more often than not) happy-ending.
The point in a nutshell?
Sometimes waiting can ultimately lead to wasting precious time and opportunities that arise when the only bit of encouragement needed lies in the act of - physically and mentally taking control of a situation - thus giving it that extra gentle nudge it requires.
At the same time and in the true essence of ying and yang there’s gotta be some sort of counter force that creates the two opposing sides to begin with.
The art of “acting” and gently caressing factors surrounding the task or issue at hand into the desired (and more often than not) happy-ending.
The point in a nutshell?
Sometimes waiting can ultimately lead to wasting precious time and opportunities that arise when the only bit of encouragement needed lies in the act of - physically and mentally taking control of a situation - thus giving it that extra gentle nudge it requires.
Tuesday, 25 January 2011
Cross That Bridge When It Comes To It
Greetings world, 2011 and this'll be that first emo rant in NOT so traditional Chiapoco style.. ha kudos to 2011.. To my readers, those that think they know me well or those that just read what I have to write know the following hits a few heart strings.. its that sorta post..
Topic of the day or night depending where you at - that Norwegian girl I quite liked calling mine..
typing time start - 11:17pm, 24th January.
When we first 'hooked' up I didn't think we'd actually end up being involved like we did with one another... something I'm happy happened. She's a real lady with that hiphop twist at that.. she that homegirl I been tweeting about this entire time.
Time flew by - cliche as it is - and before you knew we'd already been involved for longer than many of my previous relationships, we were going with the flow, cruising and just going along with it. Most importantly I treated her like my girl. However, something about her that really got to me was the fact this girl was a thinker - like myself - we differed however in that she regularly thought too much... She thought so hard she'd burst into tears infront of me, the thing was I couldn't do anything about it.
Just before Christmas she left for overseas to meet up and catchup with her family and best friends from all round the world.
Deep down in the gut I knew this would probably have been the last time I get to see her face and be able to give and receive that title of baby... not girlfriend or boyfriend.. just baby
.. the 'title' why did you ever have to get so caught up over that.. I'm probably the most chilled guy you've probably been involved with.. ever?
And so she left for BKK. The first week was pretty good, and even though circumstances overseas changed she actually made effort to call me, msg me and to even offer to skype with me. The effort she showed didn't last long and so I tried to gauge her vibe with a few sweet msgs and a very cheesy christmas present... I wasn't getting it back anymore - the preperation started.
Just yesterday we had a bit of a misunderstanding over shit on twitter - fancy that, you know shits not right when your resolving to twitter for communication. Anyway. I feel as though that was the instigator for what went down today.
Fast forwarding - I was on the bus back home, messaging back and forth with her this afternoon until I finally hit the soft spot. It all then naturally came out rushing in one plain text message.. so few words but shit, it really messed with my day - no matter how much I was preparing for it... with a few keypad strokes my involvement with this beautiful lady finally ended. I usually don't give up and reason things out logically but with a girl that thinks so much her head hurts and that fact she's there across the seas I couldn't do anything but agree and to suck it up.
And Mr Blogspot that is our story...
And here are my thoughts on the whole thing.
Why can't thinkers handle their own business?
... Why do they think so much to the point of insomnia or tears?
..... Why is this trait given to those that can't handle it? its almost slack.
I hate the fact her mind was 6 months down the track when I was here standing right infront of her right now.
I hate the fact I couldn't be there for her when she needed company the most
Hate the fact she thinks so much that she only focused on what her issues and concerns were months down the track and didn't pay due attention to what she HAD with me when she came back to Sydney.
Hate the fact she didn't understand that I was putting emotional risk into this as much as she would, as she could, as she should.
Hate that I was willing to cross the bridge when it came but couldn't just convince her to do the same.
Every moment we were "together" minus the whole "title" bullshit was enough for me. Her company was great and despite anything anyone may have said or heard about us. We were doing just 'us'.. for everything else involved "fuck it" was the answer.. to be honest I'd hoped that attitude would of extended to the whole fact you were going away.. to just "fuck it" and just enjoy the times we did have to spend.. i mean if you or I spent the rest of our time thinking what ifs.. we'd never really be content with whatever we have? I was quite happy with what we had, and i know you were too.
You were really concerned with timing and letting things happen at the "right time"... but why? why deprive yourself of being happy for the sake of having things fall into place at a time YOU choose.. cause that's what it is.. you CHOOSING when things were to happen otherwise having an "us" wouldn't of been such a burden on your mind. I know you're going to move over to another country for lengths of periods at a time but whats distance if you truly wanted to be happy? I would save up money for months just to fly where you are just to see you for one. This is how I feel. Truth.
You say you like me? but here instead your depriving yourself from just enjoying my company, what I have to offer you day to day and whatever else it is that made you fall for me like so. So why go through shit knowing that I'm willing to meet you in the middle to make things work? Im yo man, not a burden. Just like I should for my girl, I'm willing to make things work. Distance or no distance.
I don't know what happened in BKK that made you think like that, whether it be your besties convincing you to be single, or if your parents/family gave you talks or if you simply thought too much when you had too much time on your hands. Whatever it is, I'm still that Sydney Guy you fell for.
Still that dude made mega effort to court you when we met first, that guy that took you to that bridgeclimb to "start your birthday weekend off right", the guy who was there catering to you physically and mentally, that guy that knew exactly what kind of relo we'd potentially have and willing to work to make it work.You know what? I sill am.
Compared to past emo posts, this ones diff... I really am that chilled sorta guy and I had hoped that aspect of me woulda helped ease your mind.
From the reactions and disgust you express for any ex or guy you've been involved with I'm here already, showing you, infront of your face that I'm not that sorta guy.
Homegirl you instigated the breaking up but you still haven't lost me.
I'm going to make a big effort to meet you up when you come back to Sydney and Ima give you one last kiss & cuddle. I'm sure you'd appreciate that as I would..
If you don't feel an urge or want to work things out at that point.. then I'll cross that bridge when it comes to it.
Miss ya homegirl
... Always your Sydney boy
xo
End time 00:36am - 25th January
Typing time 1hour+ .. gotta be up for work in 4 hours.
ps. Lyrcs to that track I made for you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0ilpzS88_A
Topic of the day or night depending where you at - that Norwegian girl I quite liked calling mine..
typing time start - 11:17pm, 24th January.
When we first 'hooked' up I didn't think we'd actually end up being involved like we did with one another... something I'm happy happened. She's a real lady with that hiphop twist at that.. she that homegirl I been tweeting about this entire time.
Time flew by - cliche as it is - and before you knew we'd already been involved for longer than many of my previous relationships, we were going with the flow, cruising and just going along with it. Most importantly I treated her like my girl. However, something about her that really got to me was the fact this girl was a thinker - like myself - we differed however in that she regularly thought too much... She thought so hard she'd burst into tears infront of me, the thing was I couldn't do anything about it.
Just before Christmas she left for overseas to meet up and catchup with her family and best friends from all round the world.
Deep down in the gut I knew this would probably have been the last time I get to see her face and be able to give and receive that title of baby... not girlfriend or boyfriend.. just baby
.. the 'title' why did you ever have to get so caught up over that.. I'm probably the most chilled guy you've probably been involved with.. ever?
And so she left for BKK. The first week was pretty good, and even though circumstances overseas changed she actually made effort to call me, msg me and to even offer to skype with me. The effort she showed didn't last long and so I tried to gauge her vibe with a few sweet msgs and a very cheesy christmas present... I wasn't getting it back anymore - the preperation started.
Just yesterday we had a bit of a misunderstanding over shit on twitter - fancy that, you know shits not right when your resolving to twitter for communication. Anyway. I feel as though that was the instigator for what went down today.
Fast forwarding - I was on the bus back home, messaging back and forth with her this afternoon until I finally hit the soft spot. It all then naturally came out rushing in one plain text message.. so few words but shit, it really messed with my day - no matter how much I was preparing for it... with a few keypad strokes my involvement with this beautiful lady finally ended. I usually don't give up and reason things out logically but with a girl that thinks so much her head hurts and that fact she's there across the seas I couldn't do anything but agree and to suck it up.
And Mr Blogspot that is our story...
And here are my thoughts on the whole thing.
Why can't thinkers handle their own business?
... Why do they think so much to the point of insomnia or tears?
..... Why is this trait given to those that can't handle it? its almost slack.
I hate the fact her mind was 6 months down the track when I was here standing right infront of her right now.
I hate the fact I couldn't be there for her when she needed company the most
Hate the fact she thinks so much that she only focused on what her issues and concerns were months down the track and didn't pay due attention to what she HAD with me when she came back to Sydney.
Hate the fact she didn't understand that I was putting emotional risk into this as much as she would, as she could, as she should.
Hate that I was willing to cross the bridge when it came but couldn't just convince her to do the same.
Every moment we were "together" minus the whole "title" bullshit was enough for me. Her company was great and despite anything anyone may have said or heard about us. We were doing just 'us'.. for everything else involved "fuck it" was the answer.. to be honest I'd hoped that attitude would of extended to the whole fact you were going away.. to just "fuck it" and just enjoy the times we did have to spend.. i mean if you or I spent the rest of our time thinking what ifs.. we'd never really be content with whatever we have? I was quite happy with what we had, and i know you were too.
You were really concerned with timing and letting things happen at the "right time"... but why? why deprive yourself of being happy for the sake of having things fall into place at a time YOU choose.. cause that's what it is.. you CHOOSING when things were to happen otherwise having an "us" wouldn't of been such a burden on your mind. I know you're going to move over to another country for lengths of periods at a time but whats distance if you truly wanted to be happy? I would save up money for months just to fly where you are just to see you for one. This is how I feel. Truth.
You say you like me? but here instead your depriving yourself from just enjoying my company, what I have to offer you day to day and whatever else it is that made you fall for me like so. So why go through shit knowing that I'm willing to meet you in the middle to make things work? Im yo man, not a burden. Just like I should for my girl, I'm willing to make things work. Distance or no distance.
I don't know what happened in BKK that made you think like that, whether it be your besties convincing you to be single, or if your parents/family gave you talks or if you simply thought too much when you had too much time on your hands. Whatever it is, I'm still that Sydney Guy you fell for.
Still that dude made mega effort to court you when we met first, that guy that took you to that bridgeclimb to "start your birthday weekend off right", the guy who was there catering to you physically and mentally, that guy that knew exactly what kind of relo we'd potentially have and willing to work to make it work.You know what? I sill am.
Compared to past emo posts, this ones diff... I really am that chilled sorta guy and I had hoped that aspect of me woulda helped ease your mind.
From the reactions and disgust you express for any ex or guy you've been involved with I'm here already, showing you, infront of your face that I'm not that sorta guy.
Homegirl you instigated the breaking up but you still haven't lost me.
I'm going to make a big effort to meet you up when you come back to Sydney and Ima give you one last kiss & cuddle. I'm sure you'd appreciate that as I would..
If you don't feel an urge or want to work things out at that point.. then I'll cross that bridge when it comes to it.
Miss ya homegirl
... Always your Sydney boy
xo
End time 00:36am - 25th January
Typing time 1hour+ .. gotta be up for work in 4 hours.
ps. Lyrcs to that track I made for you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0ilpzS88_A
Worldwide, All Day, Erv'Day
(now look here)
You're that chick, who rocks em winged feet,
From Thailand, Japan, Norway, U.S and to Sydney City,
No matter how far or fast your think you fly,
Be it - 30,000 feet up high i'll hold you down - I'm that guy,
One day by chance you called this city watchu call,
By luck you bought that cute electric pink covered bb phone,
No accident conversation sparked between you and me,
People spoke, hated - fuck it - they're all history,
Minds racing worldwide, all day, erv'day,
I'm here though, kicking back, showing you my world, my way,
Just wana express to ya how you so tight,
While we - cuddle bridge high, and witness sunset melt into night,
We can chill, sit back, teach you tunes on the guitar,
Head out - and stuff ourselves silly at the local sushi bar,
Whatever girl, wateva you need i'm here i'll cater to you,
Cuter than a chubby kid, your my corny baby..boo,
No need to think, front, trip or whateva,
Forget - happy times, i'm here to make your sad times better,
It might be a load of jibba jabba gibberish but its my present,
In exchange I don't want a present, i'm down with just yo presence.
(Chyeah)
You're that chick, who rocks em winged feet,
From Thailand, Japan, Norway, U.S and to Sydney City,
No matter how far or fast your think you fly,
Be it - 30,000 feet up high i'll hold you down - I'm that guy,
One day by chance you called this city watchu call,
By luck you bought that cute electric pink covered bb phone,
No accident conversation sparked between you and me,
People spoke, hated - fuck it - they're all history,
Minds racing worldwide, all day, erv'day,
I'm here though, kicking back, showing you my world, my way,
Just wana express to ya how you so tight,
While we - cuddle bridge high, and witness sunset melt into night,
We can chill, sit back, teach you tunes on the guitar,
Head out - and stuff ourselves silly at the local sushi bar,
Whatever girl, wateva you need i'm here i'll cater to you,
Cuter than a chubby kid, your my corny baby..boo,
No need to think, front, trip or whateva,
Forget - happy times, i'm here to make your sad times better,
It might be a load of jibba jabba gibberish but its my present,
In exchange I don't want a present, i'm down with just yo presence.
(Chyeah)
Monday, 3 January 2011
2011
Its the 3rd of January
Time: 2.32am
Can't sleep, won't sleep and have just got a tonne load of shit going through my head for some disappointing reason.
For what I do know, today was an awesome day chilling with ->> Chan, Peony, Jnet, Celia, Chris, Paul, Paul <<--- at Bronte beach. Haven't actually been as I led myself to believe. It was a small beach, cosy and almost void of any lads. Sand was coarse and water full of seaweed though.. hmm.. weed... hehe
..
Entering 2011 I've decided to give myself the goal of being more open minded, postive and to attempt to wipe clean the hate slate... see how that goes
However, i did enter 2011 in a very messy "high on life" sorta way.. kept going until sunrise and beyond.. last man standing - kudos to me
Other than that my mind is in 1000 different places at the same time like it usually is and i felt like i just needed to type something.
Finish time; 2.36am
WT: 4mins
Time: 2.32am
Can't sleep, won't sleep and have just got a tonne load of shit going through my head for some disappointing reason.
For what I do know, today was an awesome day chilling with ->> Chan, Peony, Jnet, Celia, Chris, Paul, Paul <<--- at Bronte beach. Haven't actually been as I led myself to believe. It was a small beach, cosy and almost void of any lads. Sand was coarse and water full of seaweed though.. hmm.. weed... hehe
..
Entering 2011 I've decided to give myself the goal of being more open minded, postive and to attempt to wipe clean the hate slate... see how that goes
However, i did enter 2011 in a very messy "high on life" sorta way.. kept going until sunrise and beyond.. last man standing - kudos to me
Other than that my mind is in 1000 different places at the same time like it usually is and i felt like i just needed to type something.
Finish time; 2.36am
WT: 4mins
Monday, 8 November 2010
Here, There , Everywhere
With the passing of n2s' second year jam i find myself once again with copious amounts of spare thinking and planning time, so much so i feel like im wasting my day.. however here are some of the randoms topics that have come to mind as of late
Favours - One pet hate I have is with people who say shit that never follow through. Im a guy of my word and I expect it in return - no matter how many times I get burned it's always the case. Latest sicho that hasn't seem to have left my mind is this dude who practically promised to be the dude on n2s night that takes our photographs,
"If its on a Friday for sure i'll come down and take some shots just stay in touch with me on facebook and ill definitely get back at you."
I facebooked him TWICE in the week leading up to the event, no reply.
Not only was he a focker for saying shit he didn't mean I went out of my own way to try and stay in touch with him and yet no reply. Is he really that much of a bloody sook? I hooked up with a girl he most likely had his eyes on a couple weeks prior. Bet that had something to do with it. Man the fuck up and move on I say.
Current fb status: "Keep business, favours and casual talk separate. Otherwise fuck off."
Women. Can't live with or without you. The end
Sydney Circle. I've met people recently and since then this major itch has just sprung up on me and it goes alil something like this. I wanna do medicine, i wana do paramedics, i wana travel, i wana work overseas, i wanna meet new people, i wanna surf, i wanna shoot, i want to photograph, i wana make you feel something you've never felt before, i wana be a friend, i wana be your 'friend', i wana be tempted, i wana be spontaneous, i wana be focused, i wana cause shit, i wana be seen for the guy i really am, i wana give you this, i wana give you that, i wana share this ball of energy, i wana be sneaky, i want everyone to know, i want a new bloody phone
Depression or self diagnosed emo-ness. So many people - too many actually are so caught up in themselves and their shit that so many feel like they have to drag the world around with them down to feel their crappy ass vibe and to be sad with em. Why? do they actually enjoy being all moppy and shit - I'll never know but as with most things ive got my theories. I reckon these dudes and dudettes lack willpower. Willpower is the key i reckon. Not some drug that'll temporarily make you feel numb but willpower. A business minded analogy could almost be used "If you think you'll success you will, the only thing holding people back is the way they think"
Same shit with this emo-ness, why do people break up after 5 year relos and move on like nothing ever happened while u have other after a 2month relo jumping off building tops and shit. WILLPOWER. Willpower is probably the greatest trait one person can have, an impressive trait, a useful one, a potentially fortune creative one and not to mention an attractive one.
So if your emo, the first thing is imo - "Don't do shit and hope to move on, rather its the opposite way round. Think of all that stuff you can do cause you will move on." - props to positive and forward minded thinkers
Rhymes/lyrics/spoken word. As im slowing down in my blogging phase Im re entering one that involves alot of what you can kinda call poetry... urban styles.. wateva that means of course
Stay Tuned
Favours - One pet hate I have is with people who say shit that never follow through. Im a guy of my word and I expect it in return - no matter how many times I get burned it's always the case. Latest sicho that hasn't seem to have left my mind is this dude who practically promised to be the dude on n2s night that takes our photographs,
"If its on a Friday for sure i'll come down and take some shots just stay in touch with me on facebook and ill definitely get back at you."
I facebooked him TWICE in the week leading up to the event, no reply.
Not only was he a focker for saying shit he didn't mean I went out of my own way to try and stay in touch with him and yet no reply. Is he really that much of a bloody sook? I hooked up with a girl he most likely had his eyes on a couple weeks prior. Bet that had something to do with it. Man the fuck up and move on I say.
Current fb status: "Keep business, favours and casual talk separate. Otherwise fuck off."
Women. Can't live with or without you. The end
Sydney Circle. I've met people recently and since then this major itch has just sprung up on me and it goes alil something like this. I wanna do medicine, i wana do paramedics, i wana travel, i wana work overseas, i wanna meet new people, i wanna surf, i wanna shoot, i want to photograph, i wana make you feel something you've never felt before, i wana be a friend, i wana be your 'friend', i wana be tempted, i wana be spontaneous, i wana be focused, i wana cause shit, i wana be seen for the guy i really am, i wana give you this, i wana give you that, i wana share this ball of energy, i wana be sneaky, i want everyone to know, i want a new bloody phone
Depression or self diagnosed emo-ness. So many people - too many actually are so caught up in themselves and their shit that so many feel like they have to drag the world around with them down to feel their crappy ass vibe and to be sad with em. Why? do they actually enjoy being all moppy and shit - I'll never know but as with most things ive got my theories. I reckon these dudes and dudettes lack willpower. Willpower is the key i reckon. Not some drug that'll temporarily make you feel numb but willpower. A business minded analogy could almost be used "If you think you'll success you will, the only thing holding people back is the way they think"
Same shit with this emo-ness, why do people break up after 5 year relos and move on like nothing ever happened while u have other after a 2month relo jumping off building tops and shit. WILLPOWER. Willpower is probably the greatest trait one person can have, an impressive trait, a useful one, a potentially fortune creative one and not to mention an attractive one.
So if your emo, the first thing is imo - "Don't do shit and hope to move on, rather its the opposite way round. Think of all that stuff you can do cause you will move on." - props to positive and forward minded thinkers
Rhymes/lyrics/spoken word. As im slowing down in my blogging phase Im re entering one that involves alot of what you can kinda call poetry... urban styles.. wateva that means of course
Stay Tuned
Saturday, 16 October 2010
Dedication
Click the link, start reading the moment the song starts playing.. delay and you might not keep up ;) -> Play Me Now
This blog post be dedicated to all the real women out there who at times feel lost and confused about what they are.. what they should do.. why things the way they be.. confusing and greatly disheartening at times when your always surrounded by fake asses, however I'm telling you your fine the way you are ...It's all good
.... ready? go!
The look in your eyes, the way your hair falls naturally by your side ...too dope
You don't need your nails done, hair did or worry bout your face when you wake up & roll over to see your guy ...He be loving exactly the way you are.
Don't compare yourself to mags, models or even friends ya'll are fine, ya'll are a unique beauty ...That's all you have to know. Real Talk
..chyeah
Good girls, bad girls - we know you can't take compliments. Real men will always try ...The good guys
Shame you don't see what we can see ...It just makes us want to try even harder to make you understand
Don't ask how good looking you are cause ...you ain't good looking cause that's a stupid word ...your gorgeous
...Dayum
Vanity, pessimism, shallowness, & jealousy ...Waste
Appreciation, hope, confidence, independence, raw and honest ...Qualities
At the end of the day we don't wana change anything ...Cause you hella fine just the way you are
...Boom... sit back, relax and chill
Smile when your happy and infect that energy with those around you ...you'll move mountains. The type of person that the world would stop a min for and stare - then follow in suit.
Dance, laugh and absorb everything positive around you ...turn negatives into positives or into something amazing. Cause you can..
keeping up?
Your lips, those lips, our lips ... should I say anymore than that?
Laugh. With humour comes everything, it is hella sexy ...it's true
You females got no idea how beautiful inside and outside you actually are ...and again just remember the good guys are here to remind you once more
. Expect simple
.. Think spontaneous
... Have an open mind
.... Don't change
..... Once you find perfect what else is there to look forward to?
...... Wish for imperfection
..... Impossible is infact achievable
.... The unrealistic can work
... You can do whatever you want
.. Appreciate what you have
. Endless opportunities with sheer willpower and courage
When the right man is there infront of you, infront of your face, hugs you firmly, holds your hand gently and looks at you passionately. No matter what the circumstance ...Think perhaps you might have something amazing. Fight without regret
All this just being just the way you are and accepting it ...mega dope
Smile in times of difficulty not cause you are hurt but because you have courage ...strength
Spread the positive attitude to those needing a breath of fresh mental air ...Inspire
You are amazing just the way you are and you deserve to know ...all smiles =)
The way you are... these words be the realest, the type of words people generations down the track need to learn the real value of. Don't trip, don't get caught up in fake hype, always have an open mind and learn who's there for you holistically and not just for an aspect of you... most important of all, appreciate and respect those that have influenced your life in some way, shape or form.
So, by this stage the outro of the track should be playing.. without the heavy beats and synthesised sounds to distract you. Now listen. Listen to the last few words and ponder.
peace,
Chiapoco
This blog post be dedicated to all the real women out there who at times feel lost and confused about what they are.. what they should do.. why things the way they be.. confusing and greatly disheartening at times when your always surrounded by fake asses, however I'm telling you your fine the way you are ...It's all good
now to kick it off...
.... ready? go!
The look in your eyes, the way your hair falls naturally by your side ...too dope
You don't need your nails done, hair did or worry bout your face when you wake up & roll over to see your guy ...He be loving exactly the way you are.
Don't compare yourself to mags, models or even friends ya'll are fine, ya'll are a unique beauty ...That's all you have to know. Real Talk
..chyeah
Good girls, bad girls - we know you can't take compliments. Real men will always try ...The good guys
Shame you don't see what we can see ...It just makes us want to try even harder to make you understand
Don't ask how good looking you are cause ...you ain't good looking cause that's a stupid word ...your gorgeous
...Dayum
Vanity, pessimism, shallowness, & jealousy ...Waste
Appreciation, hope, confidence, independence, raw and honest ...Qualities
At the end of the day we don't wana change anything ...Cause you hella fine just the way you are
...Boom... sit back, relax and chill
Smile when your happy and infect that energy with those around you ...you'll move mountains. The type of person that the world would stop a min for and stare - then follow in suit.
Dance, laugh and absorb everything positive around you ...turn negatives into positives or into something amazing. Cause you can..
keeping up?
Your lips, those lips, our lips ... should I say anymore than that?
Laugh. With humour comes everything, it is hella sexy ...it's true
You females got no idea how beautiful inside and outside you actually are ...and again just remember the good guys are here to remind you once more
. Expect simple
.. Think spontaneous
... Have an open mind
.... Don't change
..... Once you find perfect what else is there to look forward to?
...... Wish for imperfection
..... Impossible is infact achievable
.... The unrealistic can work
... You can do whatever you want
.. Appreciate what you have
. Endless opportunities with sheer willpower and courage
When the right man is there infront of you, infront of your face, hugs you firmly, holds your hand gently and looks at you passionately. No matter what the circumstance ...Think perhaps you might have something amazing. Fight without regret
All this just being just the way you are and accepting it ...mega dope
Smile in times of difficulty not cause you are hurt but because you have courage ...strength
Spread the positive attitude to those needing a breath of fresh mental air ...Inspire
You are amazing just the way you are and you deserve to know ...all smiles =)
The way you are... these words be the realest, the type of words people generations down the track need to learn the real value of. Don't trip, don't get caught up in fake hype, always have an open mind and learn who's there for you holistically and not just for an aspect of you... most important of all, appreciate and respect those that have influenced your life in some way, shape or form.
So, by this stage the outro of the track should be playing.. without the heavy beats and synthesised sounds to distract you. Now listen. Listen to the last few words and ponder.
peace,
Chiapoco
Tuesday, 12 October 2010
Hahahaha
signing on at 10:00pm
Figured this blog is perfect for those emo rants and your about to witness one right now mr blogspot. All other trivial dont-really-care stuff is at chiapoco.tumblr.com if you're into that stuff.... CHYEAHPOCO is where the real deep shit is at.
Topic of this evening..............................
Women <= ahuh
Why?
...Why not?
...... Why can I?
...........Why can't I?
.... Why do I?
Why should I...
Even if I know I have every means of overcoming it. I've got the friends, the personality trait and every other capability to get over it. The getting caught up and being undecided thing that is. I'm almost as bad as my female counterparts. HAH! Tonight though the issue isn't that.
Fuck
Everytime I close my eyes at night and reflect on the days and weeks gone by I'm never truly satisfied when it comes to the aspect of 'getting socially involved' with the opposite sex. You females stir me to no end.. I've sacrificed very important things to me, re routed the way I interact and have adopted what I thought was a natural persona that suits the phase and transition that I'm forever finding myself in.
... I still have life by the balls though, so this isn't a breakdown post.. more like that next extra step you take between leaps... I digress (love that word)
so whats the issue at hand?
Women. When I'm taken I'm not fully happy AND its just the same as when I am single no matter how 'active' I may seem to be. Just don't get why. sigh duck...
I let The Great White Buffalo go thinking that was the right step.. maybe it was, maybe it wasnt - haven't quite decided yet.. still I let an amazing person go. It wont ever be the same.
Compared to your average joe my single life has taken a turn and become a lot more interesting. Doing my single thing yet Im not quite sure why I still think back to the campanionship / holding down I had in the past. Hmm perhaps this obvious theory might shed some light?...
.... Peoples views/values/morals on relationships differ and are shaped accordingly based on the type of experience they've had in the past... the same attitude that'll probably be reflected throughout the rest of their day-to-day lives no matter how much they try to change things... nothing like a first time right?
I on the other hand have had a taste of both... short and long, meaningless and too overwhelming feeling of being comfortable... perhaps my experience has just messed around with me 'position' in all this and stuck me on a fence?.. meh like a real libran should I suppose. Can't have both the benefits of a taken or single life, gotta be one or the other -> Foor For Thought
So I mentioned this to Mr Reyes recently that I should stop trying so hard and to just "back up, relax" and chill...maybe I should really consider it cause come reflection time the amount of energy sapped into this part of my life is quite significant.. there are so many other things and ambitions I could be investing into aka N2S
You know what. The emoness just ran dry in this blog. Fuck It.
I GOT THIS BY THE BALLS
Figured this blog is perfect for those emo rants and your about to witness one right now mr blogspot. All other trivial dont-really-care stuff is at chiapoco.tumblr.com if you're into that stuff.... CHYEAHPOCO is where the real deep shit is at.
Topic of this evening..............................
Women <= ahuh
Why?
...Why not?
...... Why can I?
...........Why can't I?
.... Why do I?
Why should I...
"I'm no playa... I just get caught up a lot."- this is reallllll talk. lol real real talk..
Even if I know I have every means of overcoming it. I've got the friends, the personality trait and every other capability to get over it. The getting caught up and being undecided thing that is. I'm almost as bad as my female counterparts. HAH! Tonight though the issue isn't that.
Fuck
Everytime I close my eyes at night and reflect on the days and weeks gone by I'm never truly satisfied when it comes to the aspect of 'getting socially involved' with the opposite sex. You females stir me to no end.. I've sacrificed very important things to me, re routed the way I interact and have adopted what I thought was a natural persona that suits the phase and transition that I'm forever finding myself in.
... I still have life by the balls though, so this isn't a breakdown post.. more like that next extra step you take between leaps... I digress (love that word)
so whats the issue at hand?
Women. When I'm taken I'm not fully happy AND its just the same as when I am single no matter how 'active' I may seem to be. Just don't get why. sigh duck...
I let The Great White Buffalo go thinking that was the right step.. maybe it was, maybe it wasnt - haven't quite decided yet.. still I let an amazing person go. It wont ever be the same.
Compared to your average joe my single life has taken a turn and become a lot more interesting. Doing my single thing yet Im not quite sure why I still think back to the campanionship / holding down I had in the past. Hmm perhaps this obvious theory might shed some light?...
.... Peoples views/values/morals on relationships differ and are shaped accordingly based on the type of experience they've had in the past... the same attitude that'll probably be reflected throughout the rest of their day-to-day lives no matter how much they try to change things... nothing like a first time right?
I on the other hand have had a taste of both... short and long, meaningless and too overwhelming feeling of being comfortable... perhaps my experience has just messed around with me 'position' in all this and stuck me on a fence?.. meh like a real libran should I suppose. Can't have both the benefits of a taken or single life, gotta be one or the other -> Foor For Thought
So I mentioned this to Mr Reyes recently that I should stop trying so hard and to just "back up, relax" and chill...maybe I should really consider it cause come reflection time the amount of energy sapped into this part of my life is quite significant.. there are so many other things and ambitions I could be investing into aka N2S
You know what. The emoness just ran dry in this blog. Fuck It.
I GOT THIS BY THE BALLS
Saturday, 9 October 2010
Waddup!
3 months or so into work i've finally started my on call shifts. Meaning from friday nigh 7pm till monday morning 7am ill be on call and be called into work at any time!
kinda sux balls
On another note, as I see all these uni students and non full timers rockin it out, travelling the world and having fun where i cant it kinda makes me realise how much full time shift work can really takes its toll - life is so regimented and routine that it sucks coz im a fairly spontaneous dude! ahhhh
Paramedics Vs Medicine ...thats where my headspace is at the mo!
other news, I've met some hella dope people round town, seen people who have been long since broken up get back together (marioonneee! LOL) and vice versa too.. kinda sad to see.
ZZ or Zig Zag Cru/Creative Identity is probably the highlight of my last 6months or so . those dudes be the funniest out! too bad they so far out west coz i cant really chill wit em, especially on them weeknights.. ah well
On with the grind
peace.
Chiapoco
kinda sux balls
On another note, as I see all these uni students and non full timers rockin it out, travelling the world and having fun where i cant it kinda makes me realise how much full time shift work can really takes its toll - life is so regimented and routine that it sucks coz im a fairly spontaneous dude! ahhhh
Paramedics Vs Medicine ...thats where my headspace is at the mo!
other news, I've met some hella dope people round town, seen people who have been long since broken up get back together (marioonneee! LOL) and vice versa too.. kinda sad to see.
ZZ or Zig Zag Cru/Creative Identity is probably the highlight of my last 6months or so . those dudes be the funniest out! too bad they so far out west coz i cant really chill wit em, especially on them weeknights.. ah well
On with the grind
peace.
Chiapoco
Tuesday, 5 October 2010
Tell you guys a secret
Doesn't matter how good a dancer myself or others think I am.
A girl that can counter that energy right back will have me on my knees.
Ahh Real talk!
Boom
Chiapoco
A girl that can counter that energy right back will have me on my knees.
Ahh Real talk!
Boom
Chiapoco
Monday, 13 September 2010
What it do baby boo
signing on @ 1154
Excuse the title I just figured it suited the moment.
As always its been several months between blogs posts, several things have happened and and heck of a lot more to look forward to.
People may be sick of hearing the name N2S spammed verbally, through event invites or group invites but as ignorant as many people may be now, n2s now has added purpose after what was a pretty defining meeting with a good mate of reyes and I - Jerome "Klasik" Salele - shouts to his crew Nufirm and Ones Clothing. n2s 2 years is gona be massive - we will make it massive and the energies invested into this will bear its fruits when its all done and dusted... just saying. Im a guy with ambition and unclear drive.
Also i started my new job at Royal Prince Alfred Hospital - from the get go I realised the standards of this hospital and the rate that staff stick to policies/procedures and evidence based practiced doesn't come anywhere near St Vincents Private hospital which is the hospital that i did most of my student training at, as well as my 1 year new graduate program. Its gotta be said since comparing different major hospitals is apart of agenda
Dancing wise - Ive been associated with groups called Zig Zag and Creative Identity - after several years out of that crew scene i finally decided to step back in just to see what it was in the first place the compelled me to be so active in it. What i found was both why i hated being in them and why i loved it just as much. ZigZag and CI are the funniest/best things thats happened, i forget how social dance can be. So many people out there doing their thing too busy hating rather than educating.. anyway.
Oh and i won the Australian Dance Festival - Streestyle 1v1 Hip Hop Freestyle Battles too - first time since my year10 dance in highschool hahaha heres a pic of evidence for yall viewing pleasure!
at this point of my life - 5 hours sleep is the average - and thats forcing myself to bed... chyea this feels good
Suppose i shuld come up with one of those cliche lines people make up to kinda of express themselves in that sorta "intellectual" way eh? meh - nothing in life is making a turn towards anywhere... everything however, is moving forward
signing off @ 1215
Chyeah
Chiapoco
Excuse the title I just figured it suited the moment.
As always its been several months between blogs posts, several things have happened and and heck of a lot more to look forward to.
People may be sick of hearing the name N2S spammed verbally, through event invites or group invites but as ignorant as many people may be now, n2s now has added purpose after what was a pretty defining meeting with a good mate of reyes and I - Jerome "Klasik" Salele - shouts to his crew Nufirm and Ones Clothing. n2s 2 years is gona be massive - we will make it massive and the energies invested into this will bear its fruits when its all done and dusted... just saying. Im a guy with ambition and unclear drive.
Also i started my new job at Royal Prince Alfred Hospital - from the get go I realised the standards of this hospital and the rate that staff stick to policies/procedures and evidence based practiced doesn't come anywhere near St Vincents Private hospital which is the hospital that i did most of my student training at, as well as my 1 year new graduate program. Its gotta be said since comparing different major hospitals is apart of agenda
Dancing wise - Ive been associated with groups called Zig Zag and Creative Identity - after several years out of that crew scene i finally decided to step back in just to see what it was in the first place the compelled me to be so active in it. What i found was both why i hated being in them and why i loved it just as much. ZigZag and CI are the funniest/best things thats happened, i forget how social dance can be. So many people out there doing their thing too busy hating rather than educating.. anyway.
Oh and i won the Australian Dance Festival - Streestyle 1v1 Hip Hop Freestyle Battles too - first time since my year10 dance in highschool hahaha heres a pic of evidence for yall viewing pleasure!
at this point of my life - 5 hours sleep is the average - and thats forcing myself to bed... chyea this feels good
Suppose i shuld come up with one of those cliche lines people make up to kinda of express themselves in that sorta "intellectual" way eh? meh - nothing in life is making a turn towards anywhere... everything however, is moving forward
signing off @ 1215
Chyeah
Chiapoco
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